myNEONLIGHTS

nicold xiao jie must be thinking "i knew it, sure blogstop again." but but!!!
im blogging!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!=DDDDDDDDDD

mainly its becasue i'm really really happy now.
this few days.

1)meredith: I LOVE HER!. i love love her!
the feeling when im dancing with her or her choreo AND JUST BY LOOKING AT HER DANCE.
it's incredible.
"switch": a hip hop class. i went in with quite a heavy yet happy heart for the class. it's always really uncomfortable for me to dance to hip hop songs. ya, really uncomfortable. i can be very man with my action, but, ya, when it comes to hip hop im like two left feet.
BUT!meredith meredith, she tore me open, literally.I ENJOYED THE CLASS LIKE LIKE. . . . . I WAS GETTING MARRIED.i was happy. very veyr happy!!!!
phrase of the day "if you stop having fun when you dance, stop dancing"
it is very true, if you're unhappy when you're dancing also abit pointless eh?dont waste time also.

"Page avenue?"" a lyrical jazz class, the title i dont know is wht la eh.but something like tht eh=D.
this class. . . . .all the parts of defroze, i feel so so warm, i was so so happy, i feel tht if i dont hold myself tight enough i would have flown away. the feeling was AWESOME, i was seriously blown away, by meredith by everyone there tht day. i was so touched, everyone open up. so wht if we cant remember the choreo tht clearly, so wht if we cant execute it like how meredith could, we let go.
i got see musical notes flying all over the place, carassing all of us, and we just was in our own world.we were dacning for oursleves.i cried like three four times?cause i felt myself movine, i saw ppl i cherish and dance with open up, i feel goosebump cause i thought i was going to fly, and i was happy=)
phrase of the day "every choreography i give you was my everything, my live, my  love, my soul, give me yours too, if not i would die"
yes, this absoblutely throw me around the studio bouncing off every wall.
i thought of all the danzation choreographers, and i thought of how happy and sad they can get just by looking at us dance, im sorry, if i never gve it my all evertime you all wanted it. imagine being kill by so many ppl eh.hahahahhaha
drama le.
but yeah, ultimately lets do it!

DANCE
BE HAPPY
LETS ALL KILL OURSLEVES FOR DANZATION
GIVE EVERYTHING!

2)i think i got over yuki=D
as  in i accept it le eh.
i didnt cry so badly after the day he went, then one day shufang brought her baby to studio .
i thought was my yuki. . .
then i realise how sad i was, how hard i have been hiding the fact tht i lost him, ya forever.
broke down somehow.
but after tht, i felt lighter.
atleast now he has someone there to treat him well, good, better=)
i really love you yuki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!stop being such a horny dog!!!!!lol
like you will read my blog eh.but yeh, be safe.
and thank you shu fang=)

3)had a happy HAPPY DATE with daddi yesterday=D
felt like it was our first date, those innocent childish ones.lol.
just enjoy laughing with you=)I LOVE YOU!thank y ou.
steamboat
movie
walking down the streets
taking picture
pushing each other
acting stupid
=)
everything was perfect.
Thank you daddi=)

4)we pack our house!!!!!my papa packed kitchen i packed their rooms my mama and papa packed storeroom.
everything was damn clean, those who came my house before, if you come now, you'll find many other things.lol
nic got shocked by my kitchen. got a portable barcounter kind of thing, she been to my house over 4 years and she just realise it was there.yep!!!hahahaahahha
YEAH!and i am finally going to get out of this house!brooker(idk how to spell) came today to see how  much my house worth.ONE MILLION DOLLARS!lol.kidding hahahahah
i wish.=P
but yeh, this is the first step le!
but my dad say moving to bukit gombak. . .. =.=
I DONT WANT!
i want move a street away can le.LOL
i hope it will be cheap, help me pray k?then i can move to the same block as nic!!WOW HOY!
and i finally ate my TAY family's home cook food=D
after very long.i am really very very happy!!!!!



FINALLY everything is going to the better eh=)
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!=D

LOVE LOVES LOVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I NEED A COMPUTER.
a functioning one.
i just realise, JUST realise i got 10 MILLIONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS OF PROJECT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and my com just sucks to the max,
1)no sound
2)lag
3)no microsoft words
4)no microsoft anything.
5)it just sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




sometimes i wonder,
how come it's so difficult to trust, yet it's easier to choose to trust.
it's just the matter of fact that whether you will be hurt, and how deep it will pierce into you.
sometimes it hurts so bad you stop crying, and the urge to inflict pain on your body is so overwhelming.
in the end, its just you hurting yourself inside out.
humans are stupid, every action made is blinded by something else.
something so strong that it leads you nowhere, feeling lost, having doubts.

i'm sorry i let you go, i'm sorry i didn't hold you more.
i love you, i still do.
calling your name in this empty room, still numbs my nose.
when a star shoots up, nothing came true.
thats when i realise, i'm left with no clue.

to be honest, i'm quite stress about RP's choreo.
as in for mine part.
but i'll try my best alright?
no stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHHAHAH
contradicting=.=

a lag post.

SAT AND SUN
my head look damn big.LOL!

when i get bored.

a nice girl.


worked for samsung this two days, from 11-9.
attire- HIGH HEELS(hell) and dress
pay was good, but the people visiting the booth?80% tiko bei.
after this job. i realise why some girls become lesbian. some most? men are too over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they talk to your boobs.yes. its just in their nature sometimes, but try control la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TOOO over.
BUT THE HIGH THING IS!I MET LAST FOR ONE AND TOOK PHOTOS WITH THEM.damn cute, and they really. . kowtow, too dope.
im not tan, im just blushing.hahahahhahah

saw vic for both the days=D
happy, atleast see someone i know. her cousin joined the kpop contest, AND GOT SECOND!!claps.
he really too dope, his singing really can make a girl marry him. very gentle and soothing and powerful at the same time=D
CONGRATS!

sunday zx came!happy happy!vic and kenneth and min min also came!!!!!HAPPY!but shao min left early.
after my work me zx vic ken kinda have a double date unknowningly.ENJOYED!
a simple relaxing funny double date.
lets have more!!!!=DDDDDDDDDDDD
FUN

genuine

weird boyfriend

stuck

lovessssssssssssss

happiness

MORE!!!!!!!!!


life is too short to not savour joy.YUM!

my tooth hurts.hate it=.=

met one TIKOBEI on bus to school this morning. almost wanted to stab him in his brain.
he keep trying to squeeze nearer to me when we were sitting down, at first i REN i move towards the window, then! he underestimate me already, try his luck open his leg damn big towards me. i "ahem!" then stared at him, everyone look at him on the bus. then silet awhile.
then he tries again! when i like falling asleep(but i still tried to stay awake, cause of this tiko) he hand reach between us towards my skirt, ULTIMATE!then i stared at him AGAIN, damn sharp, terence kind of sharp, then he smile smile then move away abit.tmd!TMD!!!!i cannot ren le.
and when i wanted to go out he smiled, tmd tiko-ly, thinking i can walk pass him then the space damn small. IDIOT!want to smell my butt is it!?!?!??!!?OK!!!!then when i walk pass him i oout my bag btw us with the sharp ends pointing at his face then i push the bag towards his face.TMD TMD TMD!too pissed already, he really make me too awake.

TIKO BEIS out there!!HELLO HELLO!i suggest you get a gf or find a wife or go find a prostitute or whtever k, this kind of on bus squeezing with girls doesn't work!!!!!you are only degrading yourself publicly, dont be stupid. or maybe if you're free you can go study, mdis not bad eh. diploma degree anything tht you want k?fill yourself with knowledge, reduce those unnecessary urge eh.think of your own daughters if you have any k?you also wont want them to meet such fellows in the streets.thank you

HOU SEH AH!
got the samsung job evelyn intro, thank you!
thank God too!
hehehehhehehehehehehehehehehe!!

my papa is sick le, get well soon!
wait for me to earn million millions of dollars k?
wo hui yang ni men de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
promise promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
big head promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time is passing too fast for me, i thank God i have some good classmate tht will update me with school work. i've just realise that there are so many many projectsSSSSSSS, there is 3 under one topic, i got 4 topic.and all the datelines are on november. tmd,
JIAYOU!!!!!!!

SAT AND SUN, do come down to vivo city eh, im promoting some samsung stuff.come acc me if free ba, i can gei siao intro you guys products. hahahahahhahahahahahha=)

thank you daddi for you laptop, loves <3 mafan ni le=)

- to start getting a licence after DANZATION
- to save up at least 20,000 for my car=D
- to get a laptop of my own
- to lessen burdens at home
- to get 4 As
- to be able to buy insurance for parents
- to be a wedding planner
- to have my own shop
- to enjoy dancing

JIAYOU!

okay, im looking for job urgently! feel free to ask me!=D
help me look out too eh?
thanks alot !

I WENT SCHOOL TODAY!never fall asleep. tmd proud.
hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha.
a classmate(tht i still dont know his name and he dont know mine, when school already has been on going for 5 months?) asked me,
"what you got for exam?"
me answered proudly B=DDDDDDDDDDD
then he damn shock "HOW COME?!?!?!"
then i got abit demoralise dao, he sound like its impossible for me to get B.kukubird.
hahahahhahahahahahhahahhahahahaha.
cause my two hour paper i finish in 30 mins, then one more classmate still argue, no la 40 mins,
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
then i got proud dao again.

then i conclude lei, actually school can be quite fun. just dont fall asleep.
JIAYOU TO ME!=)

met up with jamie and beckie after tht in ngee ann.
THANK YOU BECKIE!bimbo no.1(me no.2, actually dont wanna say myself de but say you, then must say me also, fair eh?=))
you really too nice le, tmd , make me feel bad only.LOL!but really thanks.
THANK YOU JAMIE CHAN!
you all one girl tht i can talk crap to and really laugh till my stomach SERIOUSLY cannot take it.lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i need tht laugh today.HAHHAHAHHA
but if you really do it, i wont laugh, i will stun, seriously stun.LOL

went lot one with baowen and my daddi after tht.
BEEF pepper rice!DAMN SHIOK!lol, baowen order wrong version of ramen, abit funny.hahahahhahhaa
tried smth new today, chocolate milkshake, damn normal, no kick.LOL!but taste nice=)
don't dig my nose=.=zhu tou.I LOVE YOU LA!hahahahahahahhah

to my stupid friend:YOU GOT ME AND ITS MORE THAN ENOUGH, OTHERS IS JUST A BONUS!
MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I LOVE NICOLE HUANG KAI LI THE TINY INDIAN WOMAN!

and this :









innocence:)

if only,









i want you.

first time:
express manicure(:

long time:
neoprint

i love you(:

Dance With My Father lyrics

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream